All the rightings

Dawn over the Blackwater Estuary.

28th October 2008. 05:59. Barely getting light. Couldn’t sleep and it started getting light with a clear sky so I decided to go for a walk with the camera. ...
Road Map (or lack of)

Road Map (or lack of)

I’m not who I thought I was, am I? I’m not what I thought I was either, am I? I’m not the spontaneous, happy-go-lucky, accommodating, laid back person I thought I’d been. I can be all those things – and … Continue reading → ...

Friends and Warmth

It was only about a week ago I was moaning about none of my friends seeing if I was OK or contacting me. It’s probably a bit narcissistic of me to expect them to. They show their warmth in other … Continue reading → ...

Friends & Conversations

I’d already thought about doing some visiting over the weekend but I’m not sure I’d have got round to it if Nile hadn’t been here. And then Mick turned up on Friday afternoon out of the blue. I didn’t know … Continue reading → ...

Disassociation?

By the end of last week I’d switched off to the extent of not even knowing what day of the week it was. I seemed to be immersed only in the moment and had no thoughts of anything else. The … Continue reading → ...

Memories

It’s been quite amazing for me since signing up to Harringay online. I have always had a lack of memories about school, particularly, in London and I have trouble picturing friends and classmates but I’ve been regaining memories I thought … Continue reading → ...
Stress and Outings

Stress and Outings

I’ve been signed off work for 2 weeks and referred for counselling. Dr. Roper was lovely as usual: warm; gentle; smiling; calm – I always want to cuddle him. I felt quite a sense of relief, not only time off … Continue reading → ...

Something’s Got to Give

Not focussed, lack of concentration, irritable, angry, sad, lack of motivation – do I go on? Stressed? Maybe. Just when I think I’m getting myself together I find I’m not. It hasn’t helped not being well for the past couple … Continue reading → ...

Endings

Nile moved out on Thursday. There was no rush as far as I was concerned but Nile decided (quite rightly) that it might be better for both of us if he moved all at once. Steve and Barbara came down … Continue reading → ...

Finding A Way Of Being

Goodness, is it really that long since I write anything here? I’ve been mulling that over in my mind and I think one of the main reasons I haven’t written anything lately is because I’ve been feeling a bit raw … Continue reading → ...