Finding A Way Of Being

Goodness, is it really that long since I write anything here? I’ve been mulling that over in my mind and I think one of the main reasons I haven’t written anything lately is because I’ve been feeling a bit raw emotionally and writing here would be exposing myself and making it feel even more raw.

I have taken control of my life and Niadh is now leaving. It seemed to be a mutual agreement but it was me who brought it up. I’d been feeling unhappy and unsure and got to the point where if I didn’t do anything about it the situation could have just continued and not gone anywhere. At least we were able to talk about it sensibly and maturely (what does being maturemean?).

Now I have to find my own way in the world once more, something that isn’t new to me. As Cary said the other day, “You always were a bit of a loner“. It’s just the getting used to being on my own that may be difficult after all this time.

I seem to adapt to situations I find myself in quite quickly though. I always have done.